Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Twitter Throwback

So I went through my Twitter archives - I deleted my Twitter about 6 months ago because I never quite got it, it was just a place for me to moan, but because of that! Here are 4 years worth of filtered Re/Tweets:
  • Words can never really say what the heart can really feel.
  • Giving up doesnt always mean you're weak, sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
  • In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make.
  • You don't know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have.
  • If we dare to fall in love, we must dare to feel a broken heart.
  • If we dare to hope, we must be prepared to be disappointed.
  • Sometimes, you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.
  • Nobody wants to hear this, but sometimes the person you want the most, is the person you're best without.
  • The man that deserves you the most is man that thinks he doesn't.
  • The past is a ghost, the future a dream, and all we ever have is now. - Bill Cosby
  • It's not what I feel for you, it's what I don't feel for anyone but you.
  • Maybe it's not that we are not meant to be together.
  • It's just that we're not ready for forever.
  • Life will shit on you sometimes. But friends are the shovels that will help dig you out.
  • The most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained.
  • Don't regret. Not even for a second. Because once you do, it means that you have convinced yourself that you were wrong.
    OK, I know this seems kinda stupid, because there's nothing wrong with being wrong but the real gist of it is that it's alright to be only human and there's no wrong in being who you are. 
  • Live without pretending, love without depending, listen without defending, speak without offending.
  • There's always some Truth behind: Just kidding, Knowledge behind: I don't know, Emotion behind: I don't care & Pain behind: It's okay
  • We say sorry for the things we've said and done. But sometimes we hurt people more by the things we don't do and say.
  • Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.
  • You're not a strong person until you've survived temptation.
  • When you lose everything you want, you find the only thing you need.
  • Every finish line is the start of a new race.
  • Sometimes, it's just easier to tell people you're mad, than to admit that you're hurt.
  • People don't understand that loving someone is like having a pet bird, sure, you can lock it up in a cage but it can't be happy if its not free.
  • Everything was perfect, until you decided it wasn't.
  • 小时候,“幸福”是件很简单的事;长大后,“简单”是件很幸福的事
  • When you're young, happiness was simple. When you grow up, simplicity becomes happiness.
  • Appreciate people who find time for you in their busy schedule. But LOVE the people who never look at their schedule when you need them.
  • I now know the meaning of two wrongs make a right. Sometimes, it means wronging two people for you to make things right.
  • Being on your phone while driving is disrespecting your passengers life!
  • Life is like hiking, no matter how tired you get, you just have to keep going.
  • Don't be afraid to stand for what you believe in, even if that means standing alone!
  • Bloggers have been publishing their lives online before Facebook was even an idea.
  • When you are happy, remind yourself that it will pass, so you learn to appreciate.
  • When you are sad, remind yourself the same thing, so you learn to let go.
  • It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to your enemies, but a great deal more to stand up to your friends - Dumbledore
  • Sometimes those with the most power has the least grace.
  • Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don't have to live forever. You just have to live. – Tuck
  • 女人没魅力才觉得男人花心;男人没实力才觉得女人现实。
  • All our lives we think about how hard life is, but every phase was harder than the last so remember: You've endured thus far.
  • Playing a role is easy. But being yourself, now that’s a challenge. – Miss Darbus (High School Musical 3)
  • If you always put others first, you'll come out last.
  • Nothing's a big deal unless you make it one.
  • Your darkness belongs to you, just the same way your light does. - Mickey Mouse
  • The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live. - Flora Whittemore
  • Anger doesn't last, guilt does.
  • I never block anyone cos nobody is ever worth it.
  • 女人必须酷 男人该优秀
    Ladies should be cool, gentlemen should be classy. 
  • Those who have experienced understands. Those who don't have no worthy opinion.
  • I wish people looked like their personalities.
  • Fighting fire with fire only feeds the flame.
  • We are not who we think we are, but are what we think.
  • Be self aware, not self conscious.
  • People always say that actions speak louder than words but the truth is people are blind until they are told to see.
  • If you don't fight for what you want, remember, it was your choice.
  • There is a fine line between sarcasm & hostility. - The Mortal Instruments
  • The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me. - Ayn Rand
  • Don't be so defeatist my dear, it's very middle class. - Countess Dowager of Grantham, Downton Abbey
  • The simple joys of a poor man far outweigh you and your expensive toys.
  • It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it. - Aristotle
  • We are a generation living comfortably in dissatisfaction.
  • "No" is a complete sentence.
  • When you can you don't want to, when you want to you can't.
  • Why would you want to be great like her when you can be great like yourself?
  • The attraction of youth is that they have more imagination than sense.
  • Why do we always run towards what we know is wrong?
  • Life begins at the end of your comfort zone. - Neale Donald Walsch
  • The truth of the matter is that you always know the right thing to do. The hard part is doing it. - Norman Schwarzkopf
  • Fairness isn't about getting the same, but what each deserves.
  • We may be weak and sometimes we even give up but deep down inside, there is a light that never goes out.
  • One day, there'll be nothing left but pride if you always let it get in the way.
  • Too many people in the world has cash but no class.
  • Baby we all run out of time you just gotta love yours as much as I love mine.
  • The greatest prison people live in is the fear of what other people think.
  • Malaysians who are proud of not being able to speak Malay is like an American being proud of not being able to speak English.
  • I think the only thing that can be below you is to not have a job.
  • Thou knowest this man's fall; but thou knowest not his wrassling.
  • 面子是人家给的 脸是自己丢的
  • Never let a memory become stronger than a dream.
  • The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear. - Nelson Mandela
  • Unabashed the devil stood, and felt how awful goodness is.
  • When the only alternative is doing nothing, remember that doing nothing rarely accomplishes anything.
  • Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart.
  • Love is not just looking at each other, it's looking in the same direction. - Antoine de Saint-Exupery
  • Nobody knows our demons better than us, so don't expect to be rescued by someone else because the only one who can defeat them is ourselves.
  • Trust is when you don't believe me even when I said I don't love you.
  • The more you hide your feelings, the more they show. The more you deny your feelings, the more they grow.
  • 男人最驕傲的不是睡過多少女人,而是能有一個女人愿意讓他睡一輩子。 女人最驕傲的不是擁有多少男人,而是她的男人愿意為他拒絕多少女人。 男人,要經得起誘惑 女人,要耐得起寂寞
    Men should be proud of finding a woman who is willing to sleep with him for the rest of his life, not proud of how many women he can bed. Women should be proud of finding a man who is willing to reject countless others, not proud of how many men she's had. Men must withstand temptation. Women must withstand loneliness. 
  • 宁为玉碎,不为瓦全
    Rather be a shattered vessel of jade than an unbroken piece of pottery - better to die in glory than live in dishonor.
  • If I ever ask you to leave me alone, please never.
  • Nobody is obligated to be kind. 
And now I can finally delete that zip file knowing that everything I feel is worth saving is immortalized here. Thank you, internet. 

Thursday, November 27, 2014

dream deep

I remember taking the first jump into the sea. I couldn't swim but I breathed enough to sustain me. I would break the surface, gasping for air, before I plunged back into the depths of a never ending ocean of numbness. I wanted to numb these feelings which has haunted me for so long. What made me happy, what made me sad. I would rather have nothing than to feel everything. I tried a hedonistic life and I hated it because it made me feel like an animal, not knowing right from wrong and knowing only pleasure. Then I rejected any source of happiness or comfort because I felt like I did not deserve any. I was angry at myself, and I did not like who I was.

So instead of surfacing, I sunk.

I knew there was always more but I was afraid to break the surface of the pleasant calm and I stayed myself. I forced myself to survive as long as I could without air. I know that one day I would have to surface... But in the meantime, I will satisfy myself with what I possessed: the comforts of what I have and what could be.

Then I realize I no longer know which way is up, even though I had adapted and learned how to swim. Up, down, left and right, never knowing which direction is swimming away from life, until I saw sunlight, dancing across the water. Rays of salvation and I wanted to live.

When you escape, you escape for only a while, but your problems still remain. You forget for two hours, but nothing has changed. You come back to the same. It was pointless, it was stupid. I let buoyancy take over and float on the surface, reminiscing about how easy it was to let the ocean take over and silence what I didn't want to acknowledge. But we were not meant for this. What is easy isn't always right. Sometimes, you need a little fight.

Disclaimer: Dream. It was just a dream. 

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

7 lessons from HIMYM

So I've just finished watching How I Met Your Mother and I realised that there were more than a few gems in the entire 9 seasons, but here are 7.

1. In time, we all become our own dopplegangers. These completely different people who just happen to look like us. 
Change is the only constant in life, and every day we grow a little further from the person we used to be. 

2. Reacher and Settler Theory
There is always one person in a relationship who reaches out for someone who could do better and who settles for and is happy with what they have. 

3. You can ask the universe for signs all you want. But ultimately, we only see what we want to see, when we are ready to see it. 
I guess this is pretty self-explanatory. I mean... I have literally nothing to add. 

4. Dobler/Dahmer Theory
A person who doesn't care for you will not be moved by your romantic gestures and will most probably find you repulsive and creepy. But if a person cares, even the creepiest gesture might seem sweet and romantic. 

5. You can't cling on to the past, because no matter how tightly you hold on, it's already gone. 
We try so hard to live in the past, sometimes, because we're afraid that we will never experience the same again but the truth is, nothing ever is. But if you live in the present, you will always have room for more. 

6. Whatever you do in life, it is not legendary until your friends are there to see it. 
Your friends are the family that you pick. And you are the company that you keep. So pretty much, we're nothing without friends. 

7. Love is the best thing we do. 
Isn't it? 

Monday, November 17, 2014

7 lessons life is trying to teach you

1. Don't scratch your itches.
Because it will only make it worse. Leave it alone and it will heal. 

2. Wait your turn.
Just like the seasons, there is a time and place for everything. 

3. We are not original, only inspired.
You are one of a kind based on your own construct, not of your own creation. 

4. Your hands are good at different things.
Nobody was created equal, everyone has their talents. 

5. Change what you can't accept, accept what you can't change.
There is no third option. 

6. Sunsets are glorious but fleeting and are never the same. 
Appreciate the beautiful moments in life, because the only way you can relive them are in your mind and even memories don't stay. 

7. Nothing matters unless you let it. 
We give meaning to what has none. Sometimes things just happen for no reason. But the truth is, your perspective of reality is an illusion. So make your perspective count, make your life worth living. 

Friday, November 14, 2014

Review: Beauty Talk Double Cleansing Gel

I received this baby from HiShop and I think I've found it. I found my Holy Grail Cleanser.

Don't you just hate it when you hop into the shower and realise that:

1. You forgot to remove your makeup.
2. You forgot to put hair removal cream on your legs for the 500th time and you're starting to look like a man.

I don't have a solution for the 2nd scenario except try again next time, but I do have a solution for the 1st: Beauty Talk's Double Cleansing Gel!

I don't usually use makeup, but sunscreen isn't skin care and you have to remove that ish otherwise, it'll clog your pores and you'll have nasty buildup on your skin which will lead to all kinds of problems.

For the sake of demonstration though, I started my shower looking like this:

After using the Beauty Talk Double Cleansing Gel, this is how naked my face was:

To double confirm that all traces of makeup have come off (cos I'm paranoid like that, which is why I hardly use makeup in the first place), I used another makeup remover and tadaa:

Not bad, considering that if you want to use the cleansing gel as a makeup remover, you're supposed to "dispense the gel into dry hands. Massage onto the face in gentle and circular motion until all make-up is completely removed and rinse with water. Repeat steps for heavy make-up."

But even though my face and palms were wet, it took everything clean off, save for some really waterproof mascara (which my eye makeup remover also has problems removing). If you couldn't tell from the picture, I had on foundation, eyebrow pencil, eyeliner, mascara and lipstick. So yeah, I think it's one helluva cleanser.

For daily usage, you mix the gel with water and massage it into your face and rinse. Just like any other cleanser. One thing I realised about the cleanser is that it is mild and hydrating enough that I haven't noticed any adverse effects even when I go for a 3rd wash in between waking up and going to bed. I get finicky about washing my face more than twice a day because I'm afraid it would stimulate oil production because most cleansers are quite harsh and strips away your natural oils, causing dry skin, which, equals oil glands working overtime to compensate.

I haven't been using it for long, but so far it's been showing promising results. I haven't noticed any blackheads developing ever since I started it and blackheads run in my family. So it is both shocking and beautiful. The first day using it caused a few tiny red spots though, but they all disappeared after a day and my skin hasn't been breaking out since. I'm quite sold on the cleanser.

On top of it all, it smells like a dream (Johnson's Baby Bath, to be exact). And I love it! I love it! This is it. I am never changing cleansers ever again. And just imagine, this cleanser perfect for me, found me. I spent all my life (since I turned 13) looking. I tried all sorts of different brands with no luck whatsoever but this got sent to me for a review and turned out to be the one. Just goes to show that sometimes the best things in life will fall right into your lap without any effort on your part. Crazy.

Anyway, if you have combination skin like me, and have been struggling to find a cleanser that works for you, definitely give this a try.

Click on any of the pictures in this post or this line of text to get one of your own and to read more about the product - like the ingredients used! And use the coupon code "VEYRONIQA" upon checkout to receive a 15% rebate. :)

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

fly away

I never really understood wanderlust. It seems tedious and tiring to travel. There is so much to consider - money, research, time, courage. But as I looked down from the plane, I saw responsibilities fall away. I feel lighter. But it is one thing to fly to a place you've never been and to fly somewhere you constantly visit. Here I know I have a home, here I know I would be taken care of. But more and more I see the appeal of disappearing into a world where the only person who knows you is you.

I always believed it's not where you are, it's who you're with, so travelling with friends and people I loved seemed like the only option. Because I could be alone in the Bahamas and marvel at my loneliness. But there is also beauty in being alone. I wish I had that courage, but the most I could ever stand is shopping alone.

But one day I will do it. One day I will disappear. If only for a little while.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Sephora Opening at Spring!

Man this post is so outdated I feel physically sick at myself. To be fair, I had laptop issues and I wasn't thrilled at the prospect of using a new operating system and was waiting for the official photos to be released... But enough of waiting. I want to blog about it now.

So I'm sure many of you Kuchingites know that Sephora finally hit East Malaysia on the 1st of September. :D I saw many familiar faces in the crowd but everyone was too distracted by the novelty of having Sephora in Kuching (!!!) to really chit chat. I feel my eyes wandering when someone stopped me to talk, and I'm sure everyone else felt the same, but at the same time, felt obliged to chat and acknowledge each other. But enough of that!

I attended both launches, once with colleagues (way to go hitz!) and once with this crazy girl I love.

Seriously though, I don't know why she's the way she is.

Everyone got these RM50 vouchers for the VIP launch, and because I attended both, once alone and once with my bf, I got two RM100 vouchers AND a RM50 voucher. Needless to say, I spent it all.

Sephora girls waiting for the first customers, but first...

There was a performance by Soul Dance (if I'm not mistaken). I really like the girl in the center. She danced with passion, and when you're passionate about what you're doing, that's when you are at your most attractive. They danced twice, once for the VIP launch and another time for the public launch and I couldn't keep my eyes off her.

Once the emcee said: "SEPHORA IS OPEN!!!" I rushed forward and upon realising no one else was following me, looked back and asked "seriously?!" before deciding that I could either shrink away awkwardly or make the best of the situation. So I told myself to fuck it and ran in, hi-fiving the waiting salesgirls. See, I was waiting for the photos to illustrate my golden moment but well, fuck it.

So now Kuching is another step closer to being an actual city. Exciting.

Here's Joash looking fab as he accidentally photobombs me.

Packaged rainbow bath capsules.

Check out this crazyass queue! It went all the way outside of Sephora. I'm glad I already surveyed the products before the public launch so I was in and out of the place quickly. Okay la maybe not as quickly as I made it sound because it's Sephora and I didn't really want to leave.

The first time I entered Sephora was in Singapore and I loved their service. I'd go back every one or two years because I cannot deny that I love Singapore. It's just such a nice city. But anyway, there was one particular promoter who always made me feel special by throwing in free gifts and samples (although, thinking back, he probably made each of his customers feel special - which is why he gave the best service!) and remembering me each time I walked into Sephora and introducing me to perfume he knew I'd like but not hardselling. He made me feel like he honestly enjoyed talking to me instead of treating me like a customer. I wish I got his name because he doesn't work there anymore. And now I don't know who is it I appreciate. But whoever you are, cheers, cos you're awesome.